The Big Question

We've all been there. You start dating someone for a while and get asked when you are going to get engaged. Then you get engaged and all the questions start coming about when the wedding is. You kiss your husband and say "I Do" and of course get hit with when you are going to start having babies. The ring has not even sat on your finger for a long 24 hours yet, but people don't hesitate. So you get engaged, get married, and get pregnant. And I'll be damned if the baby doesn't come out and people ask when you are thinking about trying again. Let me heal, first! The baby has barely even opened up his eyes yet. Within the first month of being home from the hospital with our new little bundle of joy, did this question come up. I was definitely still in the phase that I was NEVER having children again because I just thought I was dying. The constant people at the house and the lack of sleep set me into a whirlwind of postpartum that I didn't talk about to anyone. Me being hormonal was bad enough, but add no sleep into the mix and I thought I was becoming a crazy person!

There are still those days that I think I will never have anymore children. We've all been there, also. Your kid won't stop screaming in your ear or practically slapping you across the face because they are overly tired. In public. That is always the fun one. Especially when you are at the grocery store and actually trying to get something done. Maybe if I get pregnant again, they can just go ahead and start the epidural as soon as possible. This would make pregnant life so much better, don't you think?

I am still saying that I am going to wait until Davis is two years old before we start trying yet. Of course yes, if it happens before then, I will open my arms to the baby and love it fully. I want to try and spend as much one on one time with Davis as possible. Give him my full attention and teach him as much as I can. I am planning on having him in a MDO program when the baby is born, and do the same for the next one.

Plus, to be honest, I am not ready to blow up again. With the heat that we are experiencing here, I don't know how I was pregnant in the summer last year. Holy Toledo! If I were pregnant now, God love my husband, because he would see his big as a house wife eating a tub of ice cream everyday in the kiddie pool! Grandmother's huge old nightgowns would be my best friend.

So, for all of the enquiring minds out there, this mama has her hands full with this little bambino right now. The baby planning and naming our next child will have to remain on hold for just a tad bit longer. Until then, I still get excited every single day when I see Davis and can't wait for all of the upcoming events with him.