Oh, if only every day were filled with laughter, baby and mom running through a field of flowers, singing tunes from 'Sound of Music' and ending the day with a nap. And then I wake up! If this doesn't scream oxymoron, I don't know what does! No, I'm definitely not that mom that greets her husband at the door with a drink and the dinner on the table.
I would love to be considered SUPER MOMMY! With my special mommy cape and running shoes, ready to take on the day. There are some days, when I feel like I can take on the world. That I want to shout out, 'What that's all ya have? I got this, people!!' The day actually ran surprisingly smooth. I get my workout on in the morning, we have our learning time, naps go great, dinner is on the table. Why did I ever doubt myself? Pish, posh to bad thoughts. Davis sleeps through the night and wakes up a super monster. What? Now, how did this happen?
Then there are the other days, when I don't feel like super mommy, I feel like I'm drowning. So I have a talk with my self. Self, let's talk. I try to remind myself I am not doing anything wrong. Babies scream, right?! And ugg...even the dreaded all day screams. Gotta love teething. Good times, yes?! Sometimes I feel like I am in a rut of monotony and I feel stuck. My days are planned. My meals are planned. I know what I will be doing each time of the day, almost every day. Sometimes I like this, sometimes it's way too routine. For Davis, it runs smoothly and I wouldn't change it. For me? Not so much, but I have to deal with it and learn to cope. There is always the alternative of running a chaotic household, so to that I say, I'll stick with monotony.
I still go meet friends during the day, have play dates, and get togethers, so sometimes I have to tell myself to relax. It doesn't matter if the floor isn't mopped today. That the laundry isn't put away. Or that we eat sandwiches for dinner. To Davis, I am Super Mommy and wouldn't change that for the world. Here's to taking it one day at a time and learning to breathe. Every Mom has their own Super Powers!